The Absence Of Your Presence

I've been away from everything familiar for over a month now, and I'm starting to realise that I'm actually going to stay here for another ten months, which I honestly have not had much of a time to think about. There are always a lot of things going on around me, so sometimes, things get too overwhelming, and at some points, I wish I had all of my friends and family back home in Norway here by my side. (Physically, I mean. I know each and every one of you are there if I need it.Through a computer screen.) Don't get me wrong here, I am in no way, whatsoever, trying to complain about anything, but sometimes all of this feels like too much. Not too much to handle, because I can handle it all right, but it's just too much at times.

But do you know what?

It's going to be okay. Every night you find yourself in bed at 1 a.m. crying, it's going to be okay. All of the moments you think "wow, I wish my best friends were here to experience all of this with me", but they're not, and they're not going to be for a long time, it's going to be okay. The times you google "I miss you quotes" just to reassure you that other people have felt the same way. And the times you just wish that you hugged your mum goodbye at the airport for just a couple of minutes longer. It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay because I know that I will probably find myself in bed at 1 a.m. crying a lot of times, for a lot of different reasons. And I will have my best friends by my side again, and I'll also hug my mum again, and I will hug her just a couple of minutes longer. And it won't be a goodbye hug, it will be a helloi'vemissedyouit'sverynicetoseeyouagainandiloveyou type of hug. After all, all I have is right now, and I know that all of these moments will just become stories someday.

Each time I think of anyone back in Norway, it feels like a piece of me is missing. There are a lot of you who, on a daily basis, ask me how I'm doing. And, on a daily basis, I'm doing fine. I'm good. I just miss you all a whole bunch! And I will keep missing you until the day I come home, just maybe a little less over time. I will miss you until we're reunited, I will miss you until I don't have to anymore, and I will miss you until I can't. In the meantime, I will make some new memories with some new people, and I can already promise you that it will be incredible.

P.S. I once read in a book that the worst thing one can do if one misses somebody is to let them know. Which I find quite foolish, because I believe that if you have something to say, you say it. Hi, Mum, I miss you. You too, Dad! And THANK YOU for letting me live my dream, I could not have done this without you.

"Okay?"
"Okay."

John Green, The Fault in Our Stars


Stikkord:

Lars

28.08.2013 kl.00:32

FYFAEN kor savne d nr les det her no. Grin snart.

Vilde

28.08.2013 kl.00:41

Lars: <3<3

Tora Johansen

28.08.2013 kl.01:58

h fl da akkurat d samme!!!

Hanna

28.08.2013 kl.07:40

Vilde❤❤❤❤ love and miss u soooo much!

M bli forfatter av d ventlje, bra skreve veitj!

Vilde

29.08.2013 kl.01:42

Hanna: hahaha, savne d oooog <3<3
tusen takk!

Marte

29.08.2013 kl.18:57

Faan, du skriv s sykt bra p engelsk at d e farlig. Har aldri i livet klart utrykkt m s bra p engelsk! Savne d sykt my <3

Vilde

29.08.2013 kl.23:02

Marte: Hihi, takk :) savne d og <3

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